Some of you know exactly what I am talking about. But this disease is doesn't finish up quickly like the cold or flu and the medication you take has some serious side effects. The way I describe it is " imagine you got in fight with about four people and seriously beat your a**". Typically your cold medicine doesn't do that. In addition you go through this treatment and you may never get rid of it entirely. So you have to get used to this idea that there will be a "new normal" in life and you have to believe that it will be better than what you had before. Relationships will change, some will grow stronger and others will fade away. For better or for worse. Some will surprise you with the amount of support will give and others will disappoint you when they start to fade away. Now I know they have to learn how to accept my condition in their own way or they don't know how. To be perfectly honest I have a lot going on and trying to help them figure it out for themselves is difficult. But enough of that rant.
The best part is when I see those care about wearing those wristbands. I didn't realize how much it meant when I see them and I know that they do care and are thinking about me. It also helps going through text messages and reading words of encouragement from those close too me. Sometimes they can bring out some pretty strong emotions, but it is defiantly nice to see. I can defiantly say that I appreciate all of those people in my family (not the blood kind), who have listened to me rant about life with cancer, been to treatments with me, driven with me to doctors appointments, gone grocery shopping, and for not treating me like I have one foot in the grave. I am gonna live with cancer and not let cancer run my life.
Until next time!
